I'm having a hard time today. Actually, I'm having such a hard week. Maybe using the word "hard" is a bit exaggerated, but I'm really struggling. I figured that I would feel a bit of a depressed state of mind after having a week of chaotic-busy-socially-exhaustingly-great-fun. That's what usually happens. You're engulfed in a world of crazy, busy, activeness... then you're spit out for the dust to settle.
I tried to be active as I can. I got my appetite back. I went walking, running, taking the dog out at least 3 or 4 times this week. However, the problem or situation happens at night and carries into the morning and eventually my day. I go to sleep feeling I have no purpose. I wake up without having any purpose and throughout the day I'm wondering what my purpose is. Maybe I need to figure out what I need to do (work-wise). Throw in a revamped workout schedule and clean up my diet and all things will be okay again.
I lack motivation. I lack action. I'm filled with void. Back in the day, good music would probably cheer me up quickly. Possibly a nice long run would change my thinking. Nowadays, it takes longer for my mind and body to sync up. It takes me longer to warm up and to get going.
After trying to start or warm myself up this entire week... I think I'm ready to get in the driver seat and get this thing going. I'm going to try and go for a run this morning. I won't bother with any work, because I haven't received any word yet from my clients. Maybe I'll email them to touch base with them. I'm going out for lunch today. I'll be driving into another city and meet up with a friend (ex-coworker) to catch up on things.
Hopefully today will be a game changer. If not, I'll keep trying.
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