Confused, but Funny

Today has been another continuation of yesterday, but I feel a bit more sluggish. I had lunch plans with another coworker and I drove 30 miles into another city to have lunch. The restaurant we met up at was crowded, but it wasn't a problem for me. We followed up the lunch with a stroll to the frozen yogurt place. My friend was filling me in on the current work situation at my old job. After that, I headed to target to buy travel size "stuff" for my Memorial Day Weekend.

I get home and I wanted to get my hotel reservations squared away with (the same thing I mentioned yesterday). I got an answering machine and decided to call again later. I got off the phone with my contact person about 10 minutes ago. I'm not sure what to think. I got a hold of my contact person and she was expecting my call. She then "congratulated" me. I wasn't sure why, but I thanked her anyway. She got my information, 1 room, double occupancy, arrival date, departure date, and credit card number. I thanked her for her help and she "congratulated" me again. It dawned on me that she thought I was the one getting married. I didn't know what to say so I let it be. It wasn't until I received the confirmation email (from the hotel) for my room, rate of charge, and what days I'll be there. I took it upon myself to email the contact person and to set things straight. I thanked her again. I told her that I was confused and that I wasn't getting married, but I thanked her for her help. It's funny to me, but awkward, because I wasn't sure what to say or if I should even correct her.

So I got that squared away with. I'm still somewhat addicted to coffee and it doesn't help my "sweating" problem. I still sweat when I talk (whether it's on the phone, on skype, on video, or in person).

Here's to a lovely (I hope), and what seems to be a warm/hot weekend.

Productive Midday

In continuation of this morning's personal productivity, I made my way out to the lunch date I had. I visited my old (work related) stomping grounds, which is in a busy shopping, lunch, and corporate area. It's not LA shopping, but Orange County at it's finest. It was nice. We ate outside and I talked and caught up with my friend. The other coworker/friend showed up later and it is nice (especially when you have your mind in the right place).

One thing I did notice... I still have a control issue with sweating (right now it's with the under arm). I forgot to apply this over the counter anti-perspirant last night, but I was okay. I realize that the sweating didn't occur with the heavy panic attacks. I only noticed the feeling, but I wasn't self-conscious about it. One of the things I did was wear a dark colored shirt as well (as a safety precaution).

I think it's important that when you're on a roll, that you continue to keep going if you have other things to accomplish. I proceeded to shop by myself. It wasn't a terrifying experience. I will admit that I have a sense of fashion, even if it's probably turn a bit more conservative over the years. I bought clothing that's a little more loose (rather than fitted) and darker color. Yes, it's a result to my underarm problem. Just something to reassure and calm my mind.

I accomplished that and shortly after I got home, I tried calling my contact person for the Hotel Booking. I got her answering machine, but I will try again.

So... a big lesson or insight or some sort of reminder to myself is that... You got to keep on pushing yourself if you are on a productive mood. Once you procrastinate, you leave sooooo much room for doubt. That's why I try to be pro-active as I can and if I can't.... I try to stay as grounded as I can.

Productive Mornings

It feels odd that I'm going to be a bit self-congratulatory, but I do think the tasks I've accomplished this morning needs mentioning. I can see how daily tasks (talking on the phone, corresponding through emails, setting up dates) isn't a great heap to be nervous or worried about with anyone who isn't shy or have any anxieties (socially). But, I'm not like your normal Joe. I'm pretty much worn out by the time I complete these tasks. I still get nervous and I still have my anxieties.

However, as long as I have done the prep work, allow room for spontaneity, and try to follow plans... I'm usually okay.

This morning I finally took care of business with a few things. I received an email from my car insurance claim handler and shortly followed by a call. I normally don't answer phone calls and I allow the calls to go straight to voicemail, but I picked up. I made small talk and dealt with the situation. I had to call and activate my credit card. I'm not new to this, but I'm never comfortable enough to just call without hesitation. Shortly after, I had to call my mobile carrier. I received a letter about something dealing with them enrolling me in a plan automatically, which I didn't want. They informed me more about it and they made a note and explained that I wouldn't be enrolled unless I did something. I got that taken care of.

After that, I was corresponding via email with a Director of Sales at a Hotel in San Francisco. I had to make sure that the offered quotes I received were still being offered and how I could book the reservations. I received an email awhile ago with good news. I just need to call the person now and book the reservations over phone.

I've also been corresponding with my friend (and coworker) about meeting up for lunch. We made a lunch date. Now here's where you need to leave yourself room for "spontaneity". Another former coworker (who's working in the same office as my friend) invited herself to the lunch. Oh well, what can you do. It's no biggie, but I know I can't really talk loosely and comfortably as I would normally with my friend.

I plan to do some shopping after lunch, because I need comfortable and appropriate clothes for this weekend. I have a bachelors party weekend. It's in Las Vegas, it's during Memorial Day Weekend, and.... Well, it's going to be packed.

Those are my triumphs this morning and I'm trying to make the most out of this productive morning.